Cayla

outoftuesday @ 2007-03-10T00:10:00

2007-03-10T07:10:49Z

i guess you could call this used and abused. everything is hard to admit lately.

i would have loved myself had you asked me.

outoftuesday @ 2007-02-25T09:52:00

2007-02-25T16:52:46Z

who are you?

outoftuesday @ 2007-01-31T12:12:00

2007-01-31T19:12:57Z

in love with life.

outoftuesday @ 2007-01-03T14:38:00

2007-01-03T21:38:42Z

so i'm feeling a little vulnerable today. i don't like it.

i'm... fuck it. let's just focus on tomorrow. tomorrow ladies and gents... we're all going to breed boozin' babies--- party, my casa, tomorrow!

i'll always have a tomorrow to look forward to... cheers!

outoftuesday @ 2006-12-01T11:42:00

2006-12-01T18:42:13Z

i honestly believe that hugs are everything.

hugs help remind us that we aren't alone.

you don't have to be in love with someone to embrace them with a hug. so with that said, everyone can hug everyone if they want to. i think they're important.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that i could use one of those right now. and it doesn't matter who it's from.

outoftuesday @ 2006-11-20T11:40:00

2006-11-20T18:40:39Z

what a stupid decision, dumbass.

outoftuesday @ 2006-10-31T19:31:00

2006-11-01T02:31:39Z

i can't live without it, and i can live with it- i'll prove all professionals wrong. i'm so sorry to those i love.

outoftuesday @ 2006-10-25T22:01:00

2006-10-26T05:02:46Z

well, should i admit that my promise is counterfeit? that i'm careless and childish and that's all i can hope to be. and would you concede that i think only of myself? i refuse everybody's help who has been reaching out for me.

outoftuesday @ 2006-10-14T11:16:00

2006-10-14T18:21:02Z

sometimes, i really wonder if i'm ever home. i'm always miles and miles away, and i'm always running out of time. i just need you to tell me what you want and what you need, because i don't want you to be alone. you, please know you are never alone.

though that was directed towards one person who will never read this, please know i am always here, for you.

outoftuesday @ 2006-09-21T10:51:00

2006-09-21T18:56:23Z

I know the bottom, she says, i know it with my great tap root:
it is what you fear.

I do not fear it: I have been there.
-Sylvia Plath- "Elm"

outoftuesday @ 2006-09-10T11:49:00

2006-09-11T20:27:07Z

i love it when you laugh.

sometimes it's just nice to reflect on where you are at in life.

to just take a pause from all the hustle and bustle in the world and think about who you are and what you've become since the last time you took the time to ponder such things.

outoftuesday @ 2006-09-04T19:42:00

2006-09-05T02:42:54Z

you're so smart. read between the lines.

outoftuesday @ 2006-08-29T22:16:00

2006-08-30T05:16:39Z

i’m entirely ready to forget about everything and start new- and when i say “everything” note: i always forget to forget about you.

outoftuesday @ 2006-08-15T20:01:00

2006-08-16T03:07:18Z

around three o'clock in the afternoon the clouds decided to come out and play with jonothan and me. i've truly missed him while he's been in u of a town. we took our dogs (who are all male and in love) running on camelback mountain. the wildflowers are in full bloom and so am i. but, everything would be a lot better with you in it.

outoftuesday @ 2006-08-06T19:55:00

2006-08-07T02:58:35Z

can anyone please tell me why i am sooooooo damn cool?????????

woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa broooooooooo

2006-08-04T14:34:16Z

i'm really happy right now.

i have some awesome friends. i love it when i have awesome friends.

i love it when my awesome friends can help me.

i love it when i can say that my summer rocked and mean it.

outoftuesday @ 2006-07-25T10:52:00

2006-07-25T18:07:28Z

"you're going to grow up and pop pills, i swear."
"i'm not gonna grow up to be a pill popper. ima stick with the safe stuff."
"acacia, you mean alcohol?"
"YEAH!"
"acacia, doesn't alcoholism run in your family?"
"uhhh hahahah yeahhh. give me the bottle PLLLEASE!!!"

outoftuesday @ 2006-07-23T02:18:00

2006-07-23T20:42:40Z

it seems a lot of people and things i get attached to in life have left me with a feeling of loss, resulting in a huge fear of abandonment. i've talked in deep measure about this fear with a few people who bring help me face (my) reality. i am constantly looking for reassurance that they will not leave me, while begging them to leave if they ever feel the desire to, the last thing i want to be is a burden. i've just loss myself in my big mess of my glass waiting to be shattered at the very touch. the whole 'as many live because they are afraid to die as die because they are afraid to live' holds such discontentment. i cry for those who that applies to. as anyone who has been close to someone that has committed suicide knows there is no other pain like that felt after the incident. what i'm trying to say... i just feel as if part of my soul is gone.

because it is.